7 Years now that I´ve been locked up inside. They always told me it´ll get better, but they lied. I don’t blame you, you never been on this ride. All them late nights that I stayed up and I cried. Never expressed my feelings to you that are hidden by my pride. Man, enough now, so there’s no reason to hide. Speaking my truth now, because so many pried.
I was a child thuggin in the streets, acting like I was grown. Never trusted a soul, it’s always been myself on my own. I was strong thanking swings cut anyone with disrespect in their tones. Now the Judge and DA are throwing the box at me, not a bone.
At the age of 14 I grew up in the joint, living life through the phone. Struggling to battle my dreams, wishing every day to go home. Overcoming obstacles, please don´t distract me, I’m in my Zone.
Just turned 21 and I’m still here with some knowledge and wisdom to go.
7 Years now that I´ve been locked up inside. They always told me it´ll get better, but they lied. I don’t blame you, you never been on this ride. All them late nights that I stayed up and I cried. Never expressed my feelings to you that are hidden by my pride. Man, enough now, so there’s no reason to hide.
Speaking my truth now because so many people pried.
That first visit we had many tears running down our faces. Handful locked behind glass we couldn’t even embrace. I know it hart your bed, your only son was fighting a murder case. It’s messed up to find out a father you met offered to take your picture. When I was sentenced to 31 years, that was a bitter taste. Now it feels like I left behind no trace.
7 Years now that I´ve been locked up inside. They always told me it´ll get better but they lied. I don’t blame you, you never been on this ride. All them late nights, I stayed up and I cried. Never express my feelings to you, there are hidden my pride. Man, enough now, so there’s no reason to hide. Speaking my truth now, because so many people are proud.
24 Years left sitting in my cell, writing hundreds of letters wanting to show you all this ambition, I have to do better. Following through, on my promises, so that we came back together. Taking life changing classes to become an improved family member. When I make it home, I´m going to stay there and never leave. To my mother, I can’t wait to sit down and talk about all we remember. My two wonderful sisters watch out for the pranks, they are going to be really clever.
Don´t think I forgot about you my dearest nieces; I plan on spoiling you forever.
By: Nathan Paape